I heard my mom tell me as I grow up. Life teaches. Life has. I have learnt a lot. Some good experiences. Others a little bad. As I posted earlier, in the whole journey I have changed from what I used to be to what I am.
Today was another day of realisation. A simple conversation to start. We were just discussing birthdays. Realisation one. I couldn’t remember dates. Then, the topic changed. *Current topic* Phone numbers. I am ashamed but it again dawned on me that I neither know my dad’s number nor my brother’s. Forget that, I do not remember anybody’s number taken post 2009. *A little later* My roommate talks about something which she had apparently already told me earlier. I do not remember it yet again. All of this and more in an hour.
It made me think. Introspect. Why? I am, rather was a person who wished everybody on their birthdays without fail, no matter how close or distant he or she was. I took pride in knowing everybody’s phone number by heart. I would remember the slightest of things. This was not me. As I was before.
I had changed. A great deal at that. Good or bad? I still don’t know. I have become indifferent. I have stopped getting involved. It doesn’t matter to me any longer what people say or do. It hurts sometimes. But then I forget about it.
It all started with my attempt to be strong. To forget people’s misdeeds. To not read too much into situations. I wanted to have an independent existence. In my quest today I have reached a stage where I have achieved it all. What I had set for myself. I am happy. But incidents like today make me ponder if I am in the right direction. I am questioning this now. But soon I shall forget about it. Like I have earlier.
Yours truly!
ur an awesome writer/blogger what else should i say :D i think it needs both courage and clarity of your thoughts to properly jot down everything in one's mind and present it so beautifully :). Best part, you do not shy away from sharing it everyone :) - vatsal
ReplyDeletei believe we remain the same kids till the end...
ReplyDeleteits just that our horizons increase... and experience does change that innocence as well!
whatever it is, take it as it comes... and have fun, enjoy whatever you do!
good bad ugly, who cares! do what you want, do what you can!
just make sure you are happy with whatever you do... thats how i answer every time mom shouts at me...
I chanced upon your blog today and it has made my day! Happy blogging and wish you all the luck. :)
ReplyDeleteGandhar and Vatsal, you'll both are one of the reasons why I started blogging. Hence a special thanks :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Siddhartha :D I am glad if my blog did help spread some cheer :D